love came down

*so far the most difficult days but i am GRACED to overcome*

 love came down- Brian Johnson

If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear your voice

I hold onto what is true, though I cannot see
If the storms of life they come, and the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith, I will believe

I remind myself of all that you’ve done
And the life I have because of your son

Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
 
I am yours
I am forever yours
Mountain high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am yours
I am forever yours
  
When my heart is filled with hope, and every promise comes my way
When I feel your hands of grace, rest upon me
Staying desperate for you God, Staying humbled at your feet
I will lift these hands and praise, I will believe
 

iReads and iHearts

Lately, I have began reading these books. I was in the middle of Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire when I bought WarriorChicks. Both books really helped me go through this odd season of my life now. I am not done with them but I go through them alternately depending on the feel.

Anyways, God is good. I was at Reload cafe yesterday. During worship time, I heard our worship leader say "Do not linger on your failures or your success. Surrender it all to Jesus. " I was so cut to the heart because all this time I still have this issue of carrying the baggage of my past. I think whenever I drop it off somewhere, it has this ability to follow me vehemently (and visits me on FB too!). I knelt before the Lord and asking for GRACE... and it came. I knew the enemy is just trying to lure me into his lies, so I called unto Jesus for truth (John.14:1). There, God impressed in my heart to forgive a specific person that had caused me so much shame. (I think) I have forgiven him for a long time (and quite many times) but I cannot question God's wisdom, so I did what He asked. Peace came as a response while the worship leader again says "More to come." Indeed, there's more to come! I am not afraid because I am a warrior!

Utterly me.

What’s happening over this side of the world? MY DEVO.

Luke 2:19 but Mary kept all this things and pondered them in her heart.

I have all the reasons to be emotional because I am a woman. I can cry until midnight because of unfaced insecurities, or labels like it. I can ceaselessly pretend to be okay when I’m not. Most of all, I can be proud because I am loved... or have children. (RACHEL and LEAH?) But look at Mary. She had just recently tied the knot with Joseph. She had just gave birth to Jesus (in a manger). Plus the fact that their lives are in great danger because of Herod. She lived a topsy-turvy life. Period. What’s amazing about her? She kept all things and pondered them in her heart. She was not demanding nor complaining of her fate. Perhaps she feels moody often, or tired with all the moving, (or teased and pressured) but she remained grateful and humble.

I hope I could be like her, a woman with a gentle and quite spirit which is precious in God’s sight. I don’t want to be carried away with the issues of life or of the heart. At best, I want to guard my heart. I may be scared of being vulnerable but it is how it works for me now. I don’t want to rush things (even college)... Everything is a process..

Last thought: To be mature IS A PROCESS TOO. Wearing make-up may make me a piece of art... but I still like the way I am without it... (it's one thing my JACOB just have to accept. lol)  

Before the color purple, there was Blue eagles

It was BCC’s second sportfest that a group of people (boys and girls) had to name their team with a color and an animal. Ofcourse, the eagle won the bouts of ideas because aside from being often mentioned in the bible, it characteriscally represent being sharp and strong. Blue came in next to retain the team’s Firebrand color. As the sportsfest came to a close and the rise of network names ring in, the girls decided to drop blue and sculpt the name to a more feminine sound like “eagurl”. Remarkably, the name stood the test of time.  

From then on, Terej and her yet to be 12 winged their way to the skies. They were always grateful with every hatch and catch until the willing troops were formed. By keeping in step with the spirit, they journeyed from klosels to conquest nights to hosting their own encounter with 14 girls. Their in-betweens are worth mentioning too! There was Why not tell the Truth, the Wedding Banquet, Pimp my Bedroom, Oxygen, Gravity, Warrior Chicks, Jacob and Rachel, Take-Off, Purpleblood and the many Hugoy-hugoys. Every eagurl sure has the heart to serve and having fun at the same time. For this reason, the network continues to dream big. What’s next for them? Definitely an increase in Spirit-born disciples, trained to work and operate in the offices of the Holy Spirit. Particularly, catering these disciples into different avenues professionals, college and highschool levels.

Nevertheless, in every eagurlz’ flight is their battle cry to victory with the words: “Captains of 100 -Not by might, nor by power but by the spirit of the living God. Jesus3x. Conceal nothing. Defend nothing. Excuse nothing. We will govern. We will conquer. We will dominate. Eagurlz! Taking the lead.” It sounds very bold but the agilas know that their cry is a passionately rally to a right heart and spirit in loving God and people. It requires effort but to girls who loves Jesus, no mountain is unscalable. 

Dear blexi

All your efforts are not in vain... nor your tears ignored. Don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through. You know well that life is not a bed of roses. I want to remind you that in this world we really must face trials, but you do not have to be sad about it because the one you love conquered it all -so that you could come out a winner. Don't you realized He loves you so much? Remember the Cross? He fought for your victory there! You should be happy because these trials make you partners with Him in His suffering. It may have pained you a bit to see that things are not going as you planned but He must have better things in mind. Just wait and see! Can a diamond be formed overnight? No, its luster is a work of long years of heat. So do not fret anymore. It will make me happy if you just smile these sorrows away. I saw you staring at nothing for a while and at other times I see you talking to yourself and fighting it, I hope you will really learn the lesson of speaking forth faith in the circumstances that you are going through. You see, I have always believed in you. He does too, (with all of His heart). Blessy, you are precious. You are loved, You are His! Remain in His love okay? 

PS: Hey, what's this commotion in your emotions? I understand also that you get frustrated when sometimes pieces of your heart is being taken away without permission. Yes, it is stressful but you have to go through these things. Better to hide your heart in the deepest of His love so that it wont get stolen. Really!

Suruy sa Surigao

I love my every visit to Surigao. It takes my breath away everytime. My first suruy-suruy was at the heart of the city and then toured to Siargao, the surf capital. My second visit was just this month with family and friends. It took us almost 9 hours on the road, 1 pack of yema, some fruits, chocolates, 4 cd's and many good conversations with everyone on the ride. What I love about travelling is not mainly focused on the destination, I am inclined to treasure more the moments of getting there like the usual kumustahan, kulitan and kasaba. Anyway, we arrived at 10pm just in time for Kuya Pepo's birthday dinner at a simple beach.

Picture above is the cottage where we stayed for the night. Since we're a big family we had to make sik-sikan in cottages 2 and 3. After lunch of the next day, we headed for Bucas Grande which will take a 20 min boat ride. Sailing was fun not to mention the wind and splashes of water on our faces!

Arriving the Hidden Island Resort put us all in awe. The resort was practically hidden because it is enclosed by land. The place was so calm and inviting.

The resort's really lovely. Their rooms are all names of marine organisms like Crab and Blue Marlin. They have fish aquariums too, just right at your doorstep. You can also go fishing and boating towards the far side of the resort and my favorite swimming in their unconventional waters, instead of sand they have stairs. lol.  The waters actually deep already and clear. With googles on, I could see blue and red fishes.

The next day again all of us went pambot riding to explore the islands more and did a short spelunking where we swam to enter the cave and exit in a small window of the the cave's wall and jumped in the water again to get to our boat. This part was really fun and challenging. I was amazed at my mom because, she took all the risks without screams of "AAAAAAAhhh's" unlike me.

 

It is obvious that I enjoyed this trip because it made it in my blog. I hope I can come back here someday with my friends at church. This trip made me see God differently. He's actually more wonderful, beautiful, creative and loving than what I thought He is. It also made me see and feel that God loves the Philippines very much. Thus, I am in love with God and my country more. 

Goodbye Surigao =)

online status and etc

I don't know why it will take me forever to just post a status online. Every time I open FB or Twitter my mind begins to strain over the choices of words that I should use. I instantaneously then get a feeling that I should not say this or that... just because. Thus, I end up posting nothing. Nil.

But I really do like to be more expressive and out going. What should I do? I think for the meantime, I should not constrain myself. I've been hearing more about man's potential recently and as application I should not be afraid to speak my mind. Be yourself! For a start I want to post things that are encouraging... I hope you guys can see me get through this! God bless  ;D

how to warm up an icy feet?

Keep Walking.

Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25

is it true?

guard thy heart anyways

JUST DO IT

I am not much of a storyteller but I have learned to share my tales so that others may learn from it.

Summer classes ended just a few days ago. Thus, two months of organic chemistry and Philosophy are finally over. Reload MAGAZINE made it in history too. I have been busy for the most part (which I like very much) but essentially I have not been prepared to balance my GOALS with WORK (or life basically). I cannot say I was in the fast lane, I had breaks as a matter of fact. I also had time for myself. I just have forgotten what my friend shared not to forget, the DON'T word. I have matured (though not significantly) working with my Mentor in just a few days. Yet I regret it that my disciples where not able to climb up the ladder with me. Most of them have been busy with school and a few were in the provinces. I wished we we're able to run this milestone together. God knows I am desperate to build a team and that I still am believing in the power of discipleship. But sometimes I live in short memory lane. I lose sight of the bigger picture. I feel sorry, but I press forward. I want to remind myself again of the DON'Ts...

1. Don’t forget your passion for Christ.
2. Don’t let anyone take the vision away from you.
3. Don’t you dare think that the great commission is a sacrifice. 
4. Don’t be silent, you righteous.
5. Don’t be defined by your issues.
6. Don’t take for granted your CALLING.
7. Don’t stop thinking about your dream for your twelve.
8. Don’t accept anything less except what is right.
9. Don’t settle learning a usual MAGIC that can’t change the world; opt to learn and perform the new MAGIC that can absolutely change the world upside down.  That new MAGIC is Mentoring A Generation In Christ...
10. Don’t miss the party in heaven.

military jargon

Force Multipliers
Military personnel who have functions similar to consultants in corporate America. They are traveling experts in new equipment, training, medicines, armor etc, who typically fight with indigenous fighters and makes the indigenous fighters much more effective as a result.

siargao

I forgot to write about our land trip to Siargao. It was breathtaking! [Worthy of almost 12 hours travel].. Now, My Ateneo friends wants to go there after summer. The reason we traveled that far was only because my family (relatives included) wanted to see the mining business there... it's been popular in Bukidnon already. Trucks are paid to transport soil to barges that go to China. My aunt is dreaming to send some dump trucks and transact heavenly business of course. Secondary nalang ang siargao...but we ended up enjoying ourselves... I had uploaded every evidence on FB.

 

see the waves?

(click image to enlarge)

fine days

Okay it is fine to talk to yourself often...

What made me happy just recently is that I will be able to take Organic Chem this summer. I really thought i'd say goodbye to BioChem this June. I believe this summer is going to be busy. For the most part, I have to be...for Davao's sake. The past week has just been spent in spontaneous travels and immediate to do's, I never really planned things. I miss opencells and evagelism...which clearly is a part of my week the old days but it's not so long ago. What keeps me busy if i'm not outside lately is my new found friend, my Mirage guitar. Although it's broken...it still gives wonderful sounds. (I can not tell yet if it is in perfect sync) Anyway, I love it because It makes me love to pray unceasingly (without falling asleep). toodles!

blessing in business

Last week I had the opportunity to listen to Mr.Wyden King along with other businessmen and pastors. I felt out of place because most of them are in their mid 30's or something. There we're young people but they we're on the sides which made me feel awkward again to be with the mainstream people. My mind condemns me but I had to resist. I believe it was a divine set-up for me. Mr. King is a businessman of hotel chains in the Philippines. He was the owner of the Anito Motels which he closed "for the glory of God". God placed in Mr. King's heart that he would model righteousness and also cater godly communities through his businesses. Amazing! He shared his testimony and his heart towards the Philippines in the coming elections. He's campaigning for business people to get involve in the transformation of the country and to stand up for righteousness, which means no compromises in paying taxes and all. Surely, may pag-asa pa ang Pilipinas! The point is we will do our part to vote for righteousness, to pray and to fast. We are in the most exciting times, please don't miss to be part of it.

[Blessy is for Bro. Eddie Villanueva and Bangon Pilipinas Movement.]

Again as a keen listener, In my heart I was dreaming again of being engaged in business. I've been raised up by entrepreneurs and I have seen how God has used my parents esp my mom in supporting the work of God. I wish to do the same but somehow I'm put in a crossroad. Should I still pursue being a doctor? hmmm. God, my future is in your hands.  

today

Recently I have been praying that "Lord reign in my whole heart." And It's quite frustrating because as each day passes God reveals to me the many things in my heart that is still lording over God. Habits that need to be surrendered, prideful attitude and lazy hands. Things like "I want this new makeup...", "I should wear ..." lingers in my head. Super nakakasuka na ang "I". Today I'm putting it down, like a prudent person who takes precautions.God should always be my first priority. Matt6:33.


Today God is also reminding me that nearby friends are important, but just don't forget the name of your flocks. A Friend refreshes a weary you, makes you glad and goes with you shopping. Moreover, a friend can sharpen you. It doesn't matter if you have few friends...as long as you have one. 


Today, I'm putting my heart to everything I am doing. We'd be having a graduation party tonight so I have to do my best. Most of all, I should put my whole heart in the Vision. Prov.26:23




 

yellow pad thoughts

She thinks she's lousy, overly irresponsible, and boring. 

He thinks she's worthy to die for.

She admits she's incompetent and stupid. 

He is sure He'll stop everything He's doing just to hear her speak.

She's labeled a failure. 

He believes in her.

She feels her dreams are gone with the wind. 

He holds the keys to her fulfillment.

She confesses she's alone. He promises her nations.

She's weak. He's Strong.

[love]

 

chemistry

If I perish I perish. 

 

I lab ester

Laboratory time. Our chemistry teacher congratulated to us for a job well done. I wish she should have said  "those of you who are here are exempted to take the finals". *laughs* Anyway, I'm putting my hopes up that i could still pass organic chemistry lecture. It's not bad to try (again and again) to make a mark right? But if I perish, I perish. Lunch. It did not take us long to find a table at the Triangle which is not very often. Oh my! I'm getting used to eat gulay. lol.  Then I spent most of my time in the afternoon to study chemistry. Occasionally I took breaks to pay tuition at the finance office and to return a test tube cork at the stock room. At almost 7pm, I was at UIC  for the most-exciting meeting of the week. Don't you think I am becoming more responsible? I think I am!

After writing this post I'd be studying hydrolysis of esters again. toodles! =)

 

prospectus

*happy! i just found out that i would still be able to graduate on time, 2012.

*It's my first time to willingly stay in school late. we had no choice but to make our mini thesis about bat conservation. the other times i stayed late was because we were required to watch a play. nevertheless, i'm happy to enjoy study time with friends...and i guess i'm loving school (all over again). it doesn't matter if it's almost summer basta Im loving school.

*i thank you Lord because you encouraged me to press on. I won't let go... 

These are my groupmates (and good friends). From left: Tinee, wewet and me!

honest!

take1: I don't know if i would ever like organic chemistry. A visual learner like me ALWAYS would want to see how chemical reactions take place (and get to see it in the micro world) but resources like these are rare if ever they do exist. On the other hand... it kept me thinking for a while why also big reactions like a change in a persons heart is not visible in the human eye. You just see products. the RESULTS are very tangible. they convince you that something really happened though you were not able to see it literally. yet You believe still. And so...i'm tossing my old view of chemistry. I'm giving it a try...even if its HARD. 

take2:  i might not pursue medical school... but i will yet to ask God for clear directions. 

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I have only today. 

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To love God and People

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Gyabong! I was stuck with Chiaki senpai and Nodame-san's love story for a while. Thankfully, today's prayer set the priorities right. Im loving God and people!