Starfield

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head   

living for you*

*background song
Daniel was ten times better that all the other exiles because he resolved to honor the Lord. I believe his wisdom was not by chance, nor it was gained overnight. It was a result of his daily devotion to the one true God. Three years of exile at Babylon: years he spent in prayer, in consecration, in digging the holy scriptures, in making the right choices, in trying over and over again after every failure, and most of all in leading people... and look what he has become! According to the the bible, Daniel's resume is highly approved into the king's service.

 

and I looked at myself in pity. [long way pa gyud kaayo] At 21 other's have gone way much farther in the race of life. Their skills even exceed their age. Confidence beaming with experience. Hand's so strong and can carry more than a bunch of people. Voice so commanding. But the [ako] still sound *childlike even with time. Papansin. [but cannot even raise a voice] Oh God. Have Daniel ever felt so small and incompetent? Was he so pushy too? I can imagine. [did he often run and hide in the secret place?] hmm.

Right now... I hear you God [bringing me in these three years]. Why not? Ate cori always says Character formation and wala pa japon nahuman. I travel a lot to learn...but this time bring me into your deepest deep Lord and change me. [plans and dreams included] I can already feel the weight of some things now. Maybe big things for such a feeble me, but it's as light as a feather for a big God like you.

 

TOY STORY

A friend shared a story about a father and his kid going to the toy store. Just outside the mall, they both noticed two good looking toys. The child liked the "not-so-sophisticated" toy. However he thinks his father liked the better one. Now the child was confused which toy he would go for. Which is which anyway? WOODY or BUZZ? BARBIE or JESSIE?

[Well, I have a better idea. I'll wait for the child to grow up, perhaps he would like what his father liked.]

seriously serious

"I really have to finish this"

Sweet November

I miss everybody. I have been only away for two weeks and there so much to catch up already. First things first, I want to do personal follow ups with my girls. I miss them (to text is not really enough by the way). I also wanted to spend time with my mamadoyce and sisters. kumusta na kaya to ang double-up ug ang mga goals. hmm. I know you ladies did a pretty good job. thumbs up. I need to work on that area again. That's why i'm xcited to plant new cells! i learned in chemistry ba nga dili jud ta musugot ma left behind. hehe. Of course! we don't want to miss God's blessings right? and His discipline too. He disciplines those He loves. Wow! God Loves me. My journal tells me that because of irresponsible shepherds the sheep were scattered. My! Ako man gyud to bai but God rescues and helps. You and I just need to humble down.

while I was away, i realized the value of family, love, trust, wealth, health and etc. daghan gyud lagi and I think it's worth sharing.

I began to have a different perspective on money and business. Our family business is getting a bit shaky now because of a newly opened mini mall beside our store. my parents we're alarmed kai grabeh na gyud ang competition sa prices kai willing gyud mag lost ug capital ang pikas for 3 months to establish their business. So they have super low prices and my father was advised by his business friends to keep up with the prices sa kabila and if we would go along with that... imagine what would happen. dili kaau ko expert pero i know dili gyud maayu, kai dba it's a risk to sell goods lower than the cost you paid for them, and your talking of goods in bulk. so my father came up to have raffles on our anniversary, with each 100php purchase customers would receive a coupon and other gifts. para mag attract ug people thus practically giving away stuff: TV's, dvd players, rice, electric fans, burners..etc. People came pud bya, I felt like santa on 'D day'. people come because of free stuff, i hope there would be as much crowd in our places of worship. hello, Jesus gave himself... no fines!

anyhow, nakonsenxa pod ko kai basin wala naku naging helpful to my family. i should've graduated last year but until now they spend so much for me. i know my parents do not complain but ma feel lang naku na gusto nila na mag mature na gyud ko especially with my spending habits. I'll be turning 21 soon and i'm still thinking of how cute detective conan is! Grow up na daw langga be.

seriously, na-compel ko na magtarog na gyud I met a pastor pod ba,a friend of my mom. he's sick and wasn't able to preach that sunday because he was unable to stand and naglahi pod ang color sa iyang skin. i was so crushed in spirit kai naa man gud dra akong heart "sa sick people"....makahilak iyang situation, nya wala koi na sturya sa iya but "uu gyud pas" because he was telling me na magtarong. his son had to marry early. and ma conscious man ko ui ug grown up talks. hehe. anyway, let's pray more pa gyud sa atong mga pastors. my auntie said na God will bless these people and God will use us pod for that dba? privilege kaau na ui.

bitaw. messy ba akong sulat? i'm running out of time. no edits na siguro for now. let's be serious for God and His people. i fall short but i know i have you all to remind me to stay on track.

and yeah mag tarong ko. =)
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