love came down

*so far the most difficult days but i am GRACED to overcome*

 love came down- Brian Johnson

If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear your voice

I hold onto what is true, though I cannot see
If the storms of life they come, and the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith, I will believe

I remind myself of all that you’ve done
And the life I have because of your son

Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
 
I am yours
I am forever yours
Mountain high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am yours
I am forever yours
  
When my heart is filled with hope, and every promise comes my way
When I feel your hands of grace, rest upon me
Staying desperate for you God, Staying humbled at your feet
I will lift these hands and praise, I will believe
 

iReads and iHearts

Lately, I have began reading these books. I was in the middle of Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire when I bought WarriorChicks. Both books really helped me go through this odd season of my life now. I am not done with them but I go through them alternately depending on the feel.

Anyways, God is good. I was at Reload cafe yesterday. During worship time, I heard our worship leader say "Do not linger on your failures or your success. Surrender it all to Jesus. " I was so cut to the heart because all this time I still have this issue of carrying the baggage of my past. I think whenever I drop it off somewhere, it has this ability to follow me vehemently (and visits me on FB too!). I knelt before the Lord and asking for GRACE... and it came. I knew the enemy is just trying to lure me into his lies, so I called unto Jesus for truth (John.14:1). There, God impressed in my heart to forgive a specific person that had caused me so much shame. (I think) I have forgiven him for a long time (and quite many times) but I cannot question God's wisdom, so I did what He asked. Peace came as a response while the worship leader again says "More to come." Indeed, there's more to come! I am not afraid because I am a warrior!

Utterly me.

What’s happening over this side of the world? MY DEVO.

Luke 2:19 but Mary kept all this things and pondered them in her heart.

I have all the reasons to be emotional because I am a woman. I can cry until midnight because of unfaced insecurities, or labels like it. I can ceaselessly pretend to be okay when I’m not. Most of all, I can be proud because I am loved... or have children. (RACHEL and LEAH?) But look at Mary. She had just recently tied the knot with Joseph. She had just gave birth to Jesus (in a manger). Plus the fact that their lives are in great danger because of Herod. She lived a topsy-turvy life. Period. What’s amazing about her? She kept all things and pondered them in her heart. She was not demanding nor complaining of her fate. Perhaps she feels moody often, or tired with all the moving, (or teased and pressured) but she remained grateful and humble.

I hope I could be like her, a woman with a gentle and quite spirit which is precious in God’s sight. I don’t want to be carried away with the issues of life or of the heart. At best, I want to guard my heart. I may be scared of being vulnerable but it is how it works for me now. I don’t want to rush things (even college)... Everything is a process..

Last thought: To be mature IS A PROCESS TOO. Wearing make-up may make me a piece of art... but I still like the way I am without it... (it's one thing my JACOB just have to accept. lol)  

Before the color purple, there was Blue eagles

It was BCC’s second sportfest that a group of people (boys and girls) had to name their team with a color and an animal. Ofcourse, the eagle won the bouts of ideas because aside from being often mentioned in the bible, it characteriscally represent being sharp and strong. Blue came in next to retain the team’s Firebrand color. As the sportsfest came to a close and the rise of network names ring in, the girls decided to drop blue and sculpt the name to a more feminine sound like “eagurl”. Remarkably, the name stood the test of time.  

From then on, Terej and her yet to be 12 winged their way to the skies. They were always grateful with every hatch and catch until the willing troops were formed. By keeping in step with the spirit, they journeyed from klosels to conquest nights to hosting their own encounter with 14 girls. Their in-betweens are worth mentioning too! There was Why not tell the Truth, the Wedding Banquet, Pimp my Bedroom, Oxygen, Gravity, Warrior Chicks, Jacob and Rachel, Take-Off, Purpleblood and the many Hugoy-hugoys. Every eagurl sure has the heart to serve and having fun at the same time. For this reason, the network continues to dream big. What’s next for them? Definitely an increase in Spirit-born disciples, trained to work and operate in the offices of the Holy Spirit. Particularly, catering these disciples into different avenues professionals, college and highschool levels.

Nevertheless, in every eagurlz’ flight is their battle cry to victory with the words: “Captains of 100 -Not by might, nor by power but by the spirit of the living God. Jesus3x. Conceal nothing. Defend nothing. Excuse nothing. We will govern. We will conquer. We will dominate. Eagurlz! Taking the lead.” It sounds very bold but the agilas know that their cry is a passionately rally to a right heart and spirit in loving God and people. It requires effort but to girls who loves Jesus, no mountain is unscalable.