virgin?

its almost midnight yet i am still blogging away using my iphone... guess where am I at? at my fiancé's house sleeping next to his sister. Today we have been busy with seminars and coordinator meeting. During the counseling/seminar we were asked who were virgins as part of the routine. Well I did not casually raised my hand bec I was a bit shy to be so vulgar about virginity. Two of us girls where identified... (i was wondering why no man raised a hand). Who am i to judge really? Technically I may be a virgin, but in this (wicked) world who can remain pure? I do not absent myself to sex induced media---movies, books, and anything on the internet... that leads to compromises. I've been there with my eyes wide open. My heart sank, and truthfully I am convicted. God sees, and there is no denying that I am not an inch nearer to His standard. I wanted to cry, but we were in a public place.

Later in the afternoon, God spoke to me about the wise and foolish virgins of the bible. It's surprising that all of them were virgins compared to todays count when it does not really matter if you marry being one or not. well, the world has indeed changed. But God's standard doesnt. in matthew 25, we can read that although they were all virgins, but not all of them were welcomed by the bridegroom. Only those who were ready, with lighted lamps and a supply of oil are able to enter. meaning to say, God is desiring not just a pure bride in all of us, but a wise bride. A Bride who has a Fully submitted lifestyle, who doesn't put off work. not crooked, ready in whatever season, does not easily falter and of course ready to meet and please the Bridegroom.

I hope i can be that bride. One day at a time. 

morning thoughts

Im back. Just because my heart has been so full of God's stirring that I have to let it out.
Writing a blog on my iphone is not really easy, I wish there are mobile friendly blog platforms out there. Anyways, yesterday I had a fever... I don't usually get sick but when I do, most of the time it's God calling me to take a time out and be with Him. Seriously.  So I just laid silently in bed mean while God's  comfort came over me. Lots have been going on lately you know. Wedding preparations (yes, im getting married!), theft cases in our store, renovations after the fire, gasoline station papers and to add my personal business. I am just too glad to be confined in my parents room for an entire day.  That was all I need to get going. Today when I woke up I just felt God speaking to me. I was feeling angry at the world (idk why initially), but I was angry why the world is offering too much. Why there has to be many things that entertain, that take much of people's time, and  forget what God is offering---Himself. There is too much ambition in the world, and very little substance. I went angry at computer games, at series of books... when one can have perpetual bliss in dwelling in His presence. I am angry at myself why I have to pull myself back again... and why I ran away from my Lord many times. God perhaps is angry too...but at the same time He is compassionate and so loving that I cannot refuse Him. So I will let Him ardently love me... his daughter

Press on and fight the Blues

Okay. The real deal is... I am 3 month old in the business of TRAVEL and TOURS. At first there were lots of chill moments and time for R&R whenever I want some. Problems began when external factors like other branches and other offices fail to deliver their services. Thus, making us not meet peoples expectation of us. Late NSO's and passporting schedules began to pile up among the customers complaints. Then came ticketing issuance difficulties among others. As a newbie, I was determined to carry on with work as I need experience good and bad to make me a better manager and entrepreneur. However, deals made two weeks ago made my life way uneasy and above my control that I ALMOST wanted to quit and drop everything else. We have acquired a deal to accommodate 2 batches of government employees for a learning expedition. I didn't know protocol then and other concerns so I signed up for partnership with our main branch. I was chill when they agreed to arrange everything. My hopes were up knowing by God's grace everything will be perfect. Unfortunately, theory was not reality. Expected 2go vessel schedules were delayed. Our passengers/clients were ranting, complaining for almost everything we are offering. as a manager, I was desperate that I could not control the situation. (I prayed a lot for a miracle... and there was actually but it was slowly forgotten.) I had to join the tour for the second batch to ensure everything will be okay. It was okay but still I could not escape ticketing problems which costed us more than our budget. I have a lot to write about this experience, how much I have learned and how much I have tried to hide my tears... but I will just let the reports speak for itself. That as of now, I have no profit (yet) from that expedition. Nasayangan ko sa money that I could have gained... and sa trust that I could not retrieve. But all in all, it reminds me.... my treasure is not in silver or gold. But in JESUS.  

not less than perfect

Matthew 5: 48

"But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect."

Such strong words Jesus! Dili ko makawali ug in ani ka kuyaw... First, because I am nowhere near perfect. Second, because perhaps if I don't preach about this I am excused to perform. They say "do what you preach" right? 

Napamalandungan naku nga naa gyuy katungod si Jesus magsulti ani. He said this not to elevate Himself to be the better person among us. But with deep faith, that God's children have all the potential for perfection. They are not only lamps on a stand but stars. They are not just people, they are saints. 

So, counting myself as the Father's own... I am called to live perfect too. 

As an application, today, I came early for work. Tomorrow, I'l be earlier than today. I want to train in the light of Jesus words. I want to excel. To make this possible preparation is key. God Bless!